Yikes, it's been 6 weeks since I posted here. It seems like a lot, and also nothing much has happened since my last post. Going to the gym trailed off again after the times I posted about. So, I hired a trainer, which essentially forces me to go, because there is someone waiting for me, that I have to pay even if I don't show up. But I find I look forward to those appointments now, even though I end up dripping and sore by the end. There's a separate post on that in the works.

I've lost 4.5 pounds in the last two weeks, which, while awesome, is not what I hoped for. Friends are reassuring in that it is progress, but I dropped 24 pounds in 2.5 weeks once (and despite how that looks, it wasn't really that unhealthy, given the fact that I was not starving myself and the size that I was to begin with. In my head I know that I am working hard and that I am building muscle in addition to losing fat, but I really want to see the numbers dropping and my feelings on that are not really listening to what my brain is trying to tell me.

Food is really good some days and not as good on other days, but I have managed to keep away from fast food and junk food, so that is good. the "not as good" days pretty much just means I'm eating more refined carbs than I'd like, or not eating the amount of protein I should be, things like that. But it's all a process, and I knew it wouldn't be easy. I've just got to stick with it and not let myself get discouraged.