It's weird to look up and realize you have this blog thing that you haven't posted to in weeks. I need to work on that.

This year has been nothing short of amazing if you know me. There have been ups and downs, but overall I'm pretty happy. I joined a gym a couple of weeks ago, and I actually make myself go. Not only do I make myself go, I'm *motivated* to go. That's never happened before. Before I joined the gym I was getting up and walking two miles before work. Not every day, but a few times.

I'm working hard to get up the motivation to move my M-W-F gym trek to the mornings- that's slow going if I think about it but I've surprised myself. Yesterday was supposed to be my first "head to the gym at 6am" morning. Thanks to a random case of food poisoning (food allergy? no one else got sick) I was up til 3am Tuesday night. Nevertheless, when my my wakeup call came at 6 I told my friend I had been sick and wouldn't be getting up. But then I lay in bed really wanting to go. Ultimately I decided I was exhausted and didn't go, but the fact that I wanted to at 6 in the morning said something.

The fact that the trainer at the gym put me on an elliptical machine first thing and I continue to use it when I go to the gym boggles my mind. I hate the elliptical machine. I was in pain for days the first time I used one- probably due to using it improperly- but now I am determined to up my sweat time on the damn thing from 20 minutes to 30 minutes. I know I can do this. I know I need to do this. And I'm starting to believe that maybe I actually want/like to do it too.

(and adding to the progress in the last post, I can now remove two pairs of work pants without unbuttoning them. It's almost time for new pants!)